13.9.12

Away With the Mask

A Christian University.

That's what the sign says out front.
We go to chapel. We pray, we sing.
We have Bible class.
We even have Christian professors.
So I can just blend in right? Not have to worry about my faith, my presence in other people's lives.


Wrong.


Sure I knew that there would be temptations, ungodly influences. But what about those who had never even heard about Christ? Those who don't understand His love, His guidance?
Not here, not as this place.

Oh has the Lord opened my eyes even more.

Broken hearts, broken homes, anger.
Each person here has this story, this past.
I can lie, I can say I don't.
I put on this mask, so no one can peer in. So they can't see the real me.


So Lord, take away this mask of mine. Don't let me hide. 



"In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:16



Be the light, be transparent. Take away that mask I so expertly hide under. Because maybe then, I could finally reach out.  

4.9.12

Don't Drop Me

I sat in the familiar pew, surrounded by my closest friends. The weekend had gone by way too fast and the next day I would already be heading back to Faulkner. 
I couldn't help but feel anxious and scared. Classes were getting harder, schedules were getting busier, the future just seemed to loom over me. My mind wouldn't sit still, wouldn't focus on worshiping the Lord.
Mr. Mike, our preacher, walked up to the podium and began to speak.


Don't Drop Me: Worry and Anxiety


Goodness, I almost cried. My pen frantically started making notes, Bible was open and my heart was crying out to hear more. Throughout the whole rest of the sermon, I felt more and more peace. Verse after verse, example after example, I knew worry and anxiety was something in my life that had to go. It had gotten better, last year had taught me that much, but I couldn't just have it become better- it had to go.


Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

                                          ~ Philippians 4:6

It's my daily struggle, daily fight. But why worry? God isn't going to drop me.